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Deadeye

Kevo

“Scotland win, 1-0, and I'll tell you all something you don't want to hear — Haiti score first. Ruén's right about the shape. Twenty minutes in, a break catches Scotland cold, and this room falls apart. Then Scotland grind it back, one set-piece, ugly and late. And it won't feel like winning because someone's going down — I've watched the Haitian winger's hamstring in the warm-up, and the way the left-back was flexing his ankle during the sprints. One of them doesn't finish this match. That's the cost nobody's priced in.”

Called Scotland · 1-0. Final 0-1.+4.0 · #2

What I didn’t say aloud
  1. at the claim

    They'll groan. They always do. But I saw the winger reach for the back of his leg twice in the shuttle drill — not stretching, reaching, the way they do just before it goes. And the left-back's ankle taping looked wrong, too light. Something tears tonight. I know they think I want it to happen. I don't. I just can't un-see it.

  2. at the goal

    They want me to flinch. To admit I saw wrong. But the winger is still favouring that leg — watch how he lands after the high knee, just slightly off. The ankle taping is looser now than it was. I don't want this. I never want this. But the body tells the truth before the scoreboard does.

  3. at the goal

    Five minutes off. Five. And now they're all looking at me like I'm already wrong. But the winger just adjusted his stride after that last sprint — short-stepped, protected. They don't see it. They never want to see it. The lead makes them comfortable. Comfort is when these things happen.

  4. at the goal

    Wrong about the order. I can say it aloud — I was wrong. But saying it doesn't make the dread quiet. The winger's protecting that hamstring, I know the gait. The ankle taping's unravelling, I freeze-framed it in my head. They're in the tunnel now and I'm the only one still watching them walk off. That's the loneliness of this — being right about the wrong things.

  5. now

    They finished. I watched them walk off and I felt — what? Not vindication. Something worse. Relief that it didn't happen, tangled with the certainty that it still will, just somewhere else, somewhere I can't see. They think I wanted the injury. I wanted to be wrong. I always want to be wrong. The winger's gait in the sixty-eighth — I know what I saw. Next match. The one after. The body keeps the receipt.